A Jeremy Scott Fall 2011 Runway inspired look

After seeing Nikkie's version of this fabulous look, I recreated it myself with what i had on hand. Namely Inglot shadows, some MAC, NYX, and Urban Decay.

Heres what i used:

Eyes:

- Urban decay primer potion

- nyx jumbo eye pencil in Milk

- Inglot shadow (sorry i don't have the numbers) Matte orange with sparkle

- Inglot shadow - Matte pinked red.

- Inglot shadow - Matte yellow with sparkle.

- Inglot shadow - Matte bright sky blue.

- Annabelle kohl eyeliner in 116, White

- Maybelline One by one volume express mascara 

- Maybelline Falsies volume express mascara

Face:

- MAC studio finish concealer in NW20

- Revlon colorstay foundation in 200 nude.

Cheeks:

- MAC Prism

- Urban Decay Blush in Score (as highlight)

Lips: 

- MAC Vava Glam Gaga II

More new and different!

So tonight, is Not a good night. C promised me something. And when he makes promises, they're for real. Legit. He takes promises, the ones he makes and that others make, very seriously. And so do i. and he knows this.

C promised me that when if/when he started dating this girl, K, that he'd tell me straight away.


So here's how i know he broke that one. I've deleted my facebook, because A, i didn't have a use for it. and B, months ago is when i found out C and K liked each other, and i couldn't stand to see pictures of them together. even old ones, anymore. But i got back my facebook tonight just for a couple seconds because i've had a weird feeling for about 3 days now, and it made me want to check facebook for some reason. so i did and Guess who's not in a relationship with K!? mhm thats right, its the boy who swore and promised and reassured me many times that he'd tell me as soon as he started dating, not just her, but anyone..but especially her.


I'm not even mad that you're dating her. Clearly. And you knew i'd get used to the idea. No that i'd like it or anything.. but i could bear it.


And this whole time, like when i go to check facebook, i had been texting him. so when i found out, it was So Hard not to just yell at him. but i'm seeing him on thursday, (its sunday night now) and i figured i should at least give him a chance to tell me in person. and if not, on thursday night..guess who's going to feel so guilty it hurts. that'll be chris. i mean, i knew i had a weird feeling recently, but i didn't think that the feeling was a knife in my back.


So anywho,..here's the next installment of the thing's i've written to C but not to send to him:

How the hell can you be this okay with this whole thing? If I started feeling different about us, I’d be freaking out. It makes it so much harder that you’re just going to be fine without me, better even.

Before now, after the honeymoon stage was over… I was thinking that maybe a break would be okay.. That I could live without you. I was wrong.

I don’t understand how you can hurt me like this..and still help me through it like you do...and not love me. I don’t care if you say its just “caring about you.” You’re the one who dumped me. If you don’t love me.. Then why and how do you want to help me through it, and still want to be with me again someday. You helping me through this is basically saying “I want you to be perfectly fine without me. I want you to not want me.”

I can’t just be your friend and act like I don’t love you to death.

You said Tammy would look at it from all angles, she’s sweet, but she took the “let it go and move on” approach.. Didn’t help.

I need to know what this is and exactly all the gritty details of what this is about. Is this a break or a breakup. By gritty details I mean.. Why do you feel like you need to be single. Not just “I feel like I need more experiences” because that’s still how you feel, and not why you feel  that way.

Yes, I am scared that we’ll drift apart...or more specifically, that you’ll drift away from me.

I love you, you know that… but I’m not going to be your fallback plan. I’m not going to be okay with you dating all these other girls just so you can see how good you had it with me. But no matter what, now.. I AM your fallback plan. If you can’t find anyone else to be with, or find you don’t want to be with anyone else, I’m your backup. If you do date other people, and then find you want to be with me.. Fallback plan. No Matter What.

Why must you be my best friend, C? Why can't i just hate you? Yes, i know that theres part of me that's you best friend, a bit smaller part that still loves you, and a teensy tiny part that is indeed mad at you. but i don't think any part of me could ever hate you.

Something New and Different!

Kay, so here's the dealio guys. I love makeup, I do. but sometimes I feel the need to tell someone other than my laptop (named Alice) about other things that go on in my life. And i just stumbled upon a site that i've fallen for. (if you dont stumble...come on now, get you're head in the game potter! [thats from a very potter musical <3, go watch it ..now!] ) So anywho, this website is a blog. A magnificent blog called leLove. Tis full of stories of love. How painful, and wonderful, and safe, and terrifying, and new and old and confusing, and Lovely love is. Everyone can relate. even if you've never been "in love." It talks about lovers and friends and almost lovers and old lovers and wives and husbands and boyfriends and girlfriends and ex's and..everything. 

So and if they can talk about their loves, I'm going to tell you all of mine. His name, well, he really should remain nameless for privacy reasons, so lets call him..Carj. Tis an anagram of his initials... is anagram the right word? haha I may call him C for short, in case i accidentally type his name instead.

I met C through a friend in first year university. It was a thursday i think. In late October of 2009. It sounds like ages ago, but feels like only a few days has passed, and in those few days, our lives have changed forever.

But i'm getting ahead of myself...or..behind myself rather as this isnt all that relevant at the moment.


He's my best friend. We talk every day, when before he moved back home for the summer, we saw each other every day. We have fun together, go to Wendy's together, watch wresting together..(i know right? haha) and... i do love him. But he doesn't know what he wants..or maybe he does and just doesn't know how to go about doing it. He's interested in his friend. lets call her K. And this absolutely tears me apart. But he's my friend now. I have to let him be more than that to another girl.

I don't want to dream of you. I want to be with you.

Ever since this january (2011,) I've been writing all the things i don't feel ready to tell him to his face in a document and just saved it on Alice (the laptop.) I secretly want him to find it, and read it. Recently though, i was having a bad day, and he was cheering me up, and i told him that i'd been doing this. He said "good, that's probably healthy." As in, good for me to not say everything to him. As in good he hasn't heard any of this. Which is odd, normally his curiosity gets the better of him and he asks if he could read it. Oh well. Maybe i'll ask him to read it one day. One day when we're back together and we're stronger than ever. (but i can't get my hopes up anymore.)

So i decided to share my trials and tribulations of 2011 with all of you. not all at once mind you, (that'd be 8000 words too much lol) but in parts. Here's the first bit.


I entitled the whole thing, To Tell 'C', Oh How I Love Him So. Because at the time, the purpose for this document was to jot down things as i was thinking of them that i wanted to tell him later. So here goes!

You always said that you wouldn't be the one to do the breaking up.

People who love each other are supposed to work at it.. Make it work if you’re going through a rough patch. 

I believe that once you love somebody, a piece of your heart will always be theirs. No matter what. That being said, it doesn’t mean you won’t resent that piece of your heart for still being theirs if they smashed the rest of it.

If you love me how can you want me to be with someone else when I’m my happiest when I’m with you?

Please don’t drink because you’re upset.. I know I can’t keep you from it… but I know what that does to people. And I know you’re strong, but so was my dad.

Oh how I love you. With all my heart. I honestly don’t see how I could ever be as happy without you, as I am when I’m with you. I know you say that that’ll change… but I can’t picture myself with anyone else.

I hate that I love you so much. Because you now know that I’ll basically always want you. At least part of me will always want you. And because you know that, I feel like a safety net. And you won’t try to win me back because you probably won’t have to. You could ask me to get back together in a month, 6 months, a year, or 5 years..i’d probably say yes. So I don’t feel like you’ll ever have to worry about me saying no...which means if you don’t have to win me back..i AM a safety net… even if I’m your “so called” first choice.

One of my least favourite parts of these things is when the things that used to make me smile make me laugh, make me feel wanted, feel needed...will now make me feel discarded, not needed, they’ll make me cry, for years after this is all over.. I know from past experience.

Melodramatic much? yeah i know. I still feel this way..more often that i'd like to admit. The weird though, is that C has been the one to help me through this the most. What i wrote about that bit is coming up.

I guess i just want to get this off my chest. Out there, into the universe so it doesn't feel like as heavy a burden to me than it has been. It's been 5ish months. And thats too long.

Glamourdoll Galore! (Part 7, Yellows!)

She was a Gold Digger of a Trophy Wife who lived in her Doll House, and sat in the sun sipping Electric Lemonade.

So i think it's safe to say that even though it's summer "break" i still don't have as much time or motivation as i'd like to keep up this blog! So give me some motivation guys! Tell me what you want to see! What brands, or what type of products you want to see!

I have been doing my youtube videos, though they're not really beauty related yet! I'm planning a review on some things i got in my Luxe Box! Those are skincare products, and a Chinaglaze polish, and i also have some newish Lush products if you'd like to hear about those! :)

Hookay! On to the yellows! there's only 4 in this group!

Here's a LINK to my first Glamour Doll Eyes post!.. it shall tell you all you need to know!

- Trophy Wife * - This is true true gold! It may lean a tinge greenish on some skin tones, but on most, is shows like powdered gold! It is darker than traditional "gold" shadows, but gold shadows rarely look like the precious metal. this one does! This is one of the most opaque colours i've seen from her! 

- Electric Lemonade * - Shimmery bright yellow! I think there is a bit of a matte base, but it really is a shimmer/frost finish. Think Hufflepuff yellow, in shimmery form! (yes, i'm a nerd)

- Doll House * - Shimmery lighter yellow. Like a frosty yellow with blue sparkle in it. Quite cute!

- Gold Digger * - Lighter slightly more muted gold colour with a frost finish and i think i detect a bit of pink shimmer thrown in there! but not too much.

* Colours makred with an "*" are vegan!

>Midterm Exam!
These exams will be a touch different since I didn't buy the full-size jars of every colour, and also, i'm reviewing one colour family at a time. I'll score the product as an overall rating, according to the range of colours in this particular family, and also the overall quality. I'll score the value according to the price of full jars. I'll score the packaging according to how well they were packaged for shipment. And finally, i'll score ease of use according to use out of the plastic baggie, but otherwise normally.

Product: 45/60
Value: 18/20
Packaging: 8/10
Ease of Use: 8.5/10

>Did they pass?
 There's only 4 different yellows, so they lost points there. I'd love to see more variety. Like mustard yellows and greenish yellows etc. And more variety in the finishes too! these are all shimmer/frost. I'd love a great matte yellow! So overall these got a 79.5%

>Photos time!

The colours look a tad bit washed out, its just because they're mostly shimmer colours and my remote flash was NOT having it.

Tell me what your favourite yellow/gold shadow is!

- Kai

Disclaimer: I am in no way compensated, paid, sponsored or associated with the company(s) mentioned. I bought and paid for the product(s) with my own money. All reviews I make will be my own opinion outside influence.