So C broke up with K about 2 weeks ago. Was i ecstatic? Heck yes! but there was also a part of me who really felt for C because i know how hard breaking up with someone is. Especially when they take it a bazillion times harder than you thought they would. He thought that she wouldn't care much, because apparently she's really not the "show how much you really care with hugs and kisses and holding hands" type. Which i am i suppose... anywho.
Yes i enjoy that they are no longer together. But the thing is... i think after seeing her cry (she's only cried in front of 2 other people before..she just doesn't show emotion i guess..) he told her it was a break, but with not a huge chance of getting back together... i think thats how it went anyway. And he thinks that she knows they won't get back together. But, i know girls. And i know the effect C has on at least 2 of them. (Me and K) And she's been hanging out with him constantly, and i know that she's holding on, not because they were better as friends, but because at least she gets to feel like she's still wanted. But C's not picking up on this i think.
K's fallen asleep at his house like twice a week since the break up... C said they'd play video games and crash. But i can't help but think that he'll fall asleep holding her. Keeping her hopes up, maybe not on purpose, but that's exactly what he did with me too. He made promises that i don't know if he'll be able to keep, no matter how much he meant them at the time. He's the type that Hates hurting anyone at all. So maybe he feels like keeping their hopes up is kinder than hitting them with reality. But who knows...maybe he's been sleeping on the other side of the bed... i doubt it but i'm afraid to ask.
He's at a friend's cottage with K and a bunch of other friends. And of course they're drinking.. he got smashed 2 nights ago..and i can't help but think he really won't tell me if something happened with him and K again. But again...i'm terrified to ask. because what if he gets mad because its really not my place to be asking? or what if he's offended at the idea of me thinking he'd keep something from me? or a million other reasons come to mind.
But anyways.. I'll be staying at his house for about a week and a half at the end of the month/beginning of august, house sitting. And he'll be there, just him and i, for 3 days.
We'll see what happens. maybe i'll get up the courage to ask him.
I'll keep you posted.
but i'll get on to the next bit of what i wrote in the saga of C and I..it'll be my next post...its getting really long.
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